Is it that I'm feeling unbalanced or just changing?

The other day I thought I was feeling unbalanced in some way. I found a book in a charity shop called Timeless Simplicity. It was just what I needed to read. Like most things everything about the book isn't perfect but it helped me to feel more balanced just reading about how I can change some things around here for me. There's definitely more though that I want to do for us as a family not just me. I know that I've realized over the last few months that our family doesn't do negative emotions very well. By that I mean we try to avoid them or stuff them down in some way to get back to the Joy as quickly as possible. I don't want to wallow in negative feelings but some wonderful people online have helped me to realize that all our emotions and feelings can be good things too. I think our society in general though teaches us that only the positive emotions are worth anything. The negative ones though can really help us to learn much more about ourselves and certainly trying not to deal with them isn't helpful. I can see that now. I know it starts with me and then things will just start to fall into place. When I post it's often someone else's post that inspired me in some way. Thank You for my inspiration for posting today Maisha. http://7freespirits.blogspot.com/2009/08/learning-to-let-it-flow.html

What loving action can I take right now?

just thinking about this makes one feel better and happier imo. Each and every day this question can be asked again and again and be so different and sometimes very much the same. Right now my loving action is watching one of the Harry Potter films with the family. Dh is a big fan of listening to the books and then seeing the films. Another action I took this evening was to join a wow yahoo list group. Back to watching the movie!

Good feelings & random thoughts....

I feel inspired to write/blog and so taking advantage of that in the moment. I don't know why but that 'feeling' often doesn't seem to last very long with me. Maybe because my mind seems to quickly jump on to other things all the time. My first and perfect sized laptop no longer works. I now have a newer, to me, bigger one. I really like the bigger screen but the other one definitely was more mobile. Macalla has decided instead of piano, at least for now, she wants to try to learn the violin. Having so limited experiences of musical instruments and learning to play them I had no idea where to go from there. Almost everyone I've mentioned it to has been incredibly helpful with even just the smallest piece of information. My initial inspiration today was reading from a radical unschooling email list. Someone said "What loving action can I take right now?" I just loved that and think I'm going to make my next post (hopefully tomorrow) with that name and my thoughts about it all. For today though I wanted to end with how thankful and happy I feel today having such a great group of women out there in the world online helping one another to help ourselves and our children have our happiest most joyful lives.

4 months later

and I'm back!!! An update on the other stuff from all those months ago. Xmas was a great day. haven't used the xbox as much as i would have thought. I'm going to try to get the game Rock band 2. I've heard it's much better than the first one which is the one we have. We moved about a month ago and with everything going on we stopped going to Piano lessons. Macalla still deciding if or when she wants to go back. That's it for now. not making any promises but I'm hoping to start to blog a lot more. I joined fb about Oct. last year and writing on there, even just a couple of words here and there some days, I think has helped me to be more consistant with writing online. Looking at other home-ed blogs has really inspired me again. Special thanks especially to Bev.